Experiences

Who'd have ever thought
that being here would be this way
I know you didn't
You thought it'd be a rough day
You were right you know
It was a tough time in a way
In the heat in the Tube
And when flying over the bay
But the time here
I wouldn't be ready to trade
Share it with you I would
This is how experiences are made

Two sides

Looking forward
Dreading it at the same time
Two sides to the same coin

Memory Mirage

Reach back into the depths of memory
And my mind spits out a blank slate
Anything put in there is going to be true

Wrapped tight

Softly those words
Wrap around me
And put me to sleep

Unheard words

Can you hear me?
I am calling out to you
In words that you can feel

Dry

The river that runs full
Is now run out and dry
Even as rain pours down 

Idea hits

When that idea hits you
that's when you feel alive
The fog lifts and ears ring
Words flow as the clarity of it hits you
All is right again

Small Talk

Conversations scrape the surface
Of what we want to say
We want to scream from rooftops
Of how we would be anywhere else in the world
Rather than in this chair right next to each other
The way we say this is fake smiles and laughs

And Small Talk

Tear jerker

The wells of my eyes began to overflow
And I wept for everything
I cried for the moon rising above the lights
Of that faraway town
I sobbed at the clouds that fogged everything

Failing at it

Most of what I will do, I will fail at. I have come to terms with that now. There is no shame in that. Everybody fails, but will not tell you that they have. It is a secret that they would like to keep. It is also a lie that they tell themselves.

We do go out and quote the greats. Failure is a stepping stone... Failure means that you are trying. He who has never failed has never risked ... so on and on.  But when it comes to actually failing ourselves... it is a disaster and a disgrace to us. We would never agree to accept it.

Starting today I am going to go out and fail mindfully. Failed conversations, failed thought processes, failed attempts at being a better person. I will acknowledge this failure and feel proud of it. I will analyze the hell out of that failure and try to build theories around the reasons for me being so bad at whatever matters. And I will know that it is what I am and accept it. But you are not going to catch me feeling sorry for myself.