Apathy

I learnt something about me
And it shocked me immensely
I never thought it could be true
But sadly it is
It shook me more than I can say
And I fear this shock won't wear away
I wish I could forget all this
I know I never will
I cannot take anyone telling me
That I am wrong or can be
I cannot lose an argument
So I run away
I wear a mask of apathy
Or act holier than ye
I turn away lest I may lose
But it's the same story